January 2010
Happy New Years!
This year started out good, actually. I’m pretty sure the first 6 or 7 months of this year were way better than past years. I was in a good place with friends and everything. The end of march, I met a boy, that made me really happy, for the most part, for about four months. When that ended, I feel like everything seemed to go downhill from there. Well, actually my friend situation never...
I hate feeling useless.
I feel like I could never make anyone feel better when they are down or stressed. I just feel like a bother all the time, so I quit trying. I really wish, I could make someone feel better because I really hate feeling useless all the damn time. It sucks how I can’t even help out a friend, just to talk for a bit, maybe put a smile on their face. I think it would make me feel unbelievably...
December 2009
“Losing your hearts desire is tragic, but gaining it? It’s all you can hope for....”
– Peyton Sawyer (OTH)
I like this.
Treat.
xsunshineee:
It’s funny how the less we talk, the more I begin to realize it was not meant to be. It’s funny how slow it began, and how fast it ended. It’s funny how in the beginning you liked me, but in the end you liked someone else. It’s funny how you meant a lot to me, but I meant nothing to you.
That’s pretty much how I felt. Kinda now?
“Some things, however, are true no matter how hard you might try to block them...”
– Alice Hoffman (via kari-shma)
“Don’t tell me who I am because unless I write all my thoughts down on a piece of...”
– Unknown (via littlemiss) (via sandytran)
13893.) I'm really insecure.
(via blogsecret)
13899.) I don't know what to do anymore. Life...
(via blogsecret)
“Night-time is when the things get heavy You feel alone and you want somebody...”
– Mos Def (via hiphop-quotables)
“I must learn to love the fool in me, the one who feels too much, talks too much,...”
– Theodore Isaac Rubin (via littlemiss)
Favorite TV couples.
Nathan & Haley. I would die to have their kind of love.
Patrick & Robin. I would be PISSED if they ever broke up.
Jason & Sam. If anyone ever got between them on the show, I hated them.
Lucas & Brooke. They have to be my all-time favorite TV show couple.
Seth & Summer. They are the cute and funny couple.
There is definetly something that makes these couples and...
Broken, this fragile thing now. And I can't, I...
(via stephyasco)
Sometimes you don't want to know the truth. You...
(via cindyxlove)
I'm thinking back on the past. It's true that time...
xsunshineee:
“We are all guilty of saving old messages from someone who became really special...”
– (via cindyxlove)
Honestly, I don't know what exactly it is that I...
cindyxlove:
I’m taking it one day at a time hoping that things will get eventually get better. But they don’t. Everything just seems like a blur and nothing seems to make sense. It’s like my happiness is so close, yet so far out of reach.
They say time will make this go away, but it's...
(via xsunshineee)
Mood Swings.
I have mood swings. Some nights I could be depressed as hell and cry myself to sleep. Other nights, like tonight, I’m fine, not happy, but not crying either. I kind of miss the nights where I smiled and laughed non-stop. The nights where I went to bed with a smile on my face and not a tear drop waiting to wet my pillowcase.
“You don’t let people in. It’s hard for you, and once you do, you don’t want to...”
– The Hills (via runawaytrain)
If I want anyone to be happy, I want it to be you.
via curiositykilledthecatt)
If I want anyone to be happy, I want it to be you. My best friend, Anthony. I think he deserves it.
I never talk to people first.
suenosdulces:
daweenafails:
I don’t know why.
I feel like a bother.
xsunshineee:
Wishing on a star won’t make you dreams come true. No matter how hard you try. You’re the only one who can make yourself happy. So go all out in everything that you do. Love everyone. Laugh out loud. Don’t worry who sees you. And be true to yourself. And just maybe with a little luck, your dreams will come true.
I feel like this is true. I just don’t get how you could do...
she-whispers:
Sometimes, I can’t help but wonder what my purpose in life is. What is it that sets me apart from everyone else that is still keeping me alive at this very moment? What skill or talent could I possibly have that will benefit this world? Or maybe, it’s less drastic. Maybe I’m here to change something small or better yet, someone. I suppose I will never know.
xsunshineee:
I love music. I’m sure everyone does. Music never fails me, it never has let me down and I don’t think it ever will. Sometimes music makes me cry but the beauty in its sadness is what I feel. Nothing has been ever been able to make me feel the way the notes and lyrics has. You get what I’m saying? There’s nothing like a good song that explains how you feel. Music is like our most...
annebtch:
Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don’t belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming
1753. I wish I could let go of people.
(via 11-eleven-wishes)
Bold the truths.
ellecullenx3:
My Personality I’m loud. I’m obnoxious. I’m sarcastic. I’m cocky. I cry easily. I have a bad temper. For the most part, I don’t like people. I’m easy to get along with. I like to fight. I have more enemies than friends. I’ve smoked. I’ve smoked weed. I drink coffee. I clean my room daily.
I’ve yelled at a teacher. I’ve been suspended. I’ve had an in-school suspension. I’ve been...
500 Days Of Summer
“It’s these cards, and these movies, and these pop songs. They’re to blame for our lies, for the heartache, for everything. People should be able to say how they feel, how they really feel. Not some words strangers put in their mouths.”
I wonder what everyone would say to get their feelings across nowadays if we never knew about fairytale movies and love stories, without...
I listen to sad songs when I'm down or feeling...
cindyxlove:
I know that they make things worse and I know it would either make me cry or make me cry even MORE, but I do it anyways. Stupid right?
I have my “emo” songs.
Treat.
I give up.
I hate feeling a certain way when I know I...
shessolegit:
(via playdirty)
Maybe there's more than meets the eye, because...
(via cindyxlove)
jdarling:
I’m the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows. Who will listen to a love song and see his face. Who will look for him wherever she goes. I’m the type of girl who doesn’t get over things easily. Who will beat herself up when someone doesn’t love her back. Who will cry herself to sleep cause she feels she’s not good enough. But I’m also the type of girl who’s strong. Who...
“There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid,...”
– Lucas Scott
13703.) Sometimes i wonder why i can't just be...
“Alone or not, you got to walk ahead.”
– P.S. I Love You.
I just want to feel safe with someone... to not...
(via runawaytrain)